First of all, thank you to everyone who expressed how they feel.
Thank you to everyone who expressed their support. It really means a lot to me, considering the year I’ve had.
Thank you to those who felt upset and expressed their disappointment. Please understand that I was caught up in a very messed up personal situation. I never misled you about anything with regards to trading. I try to be as impartial as I can with all the data, facts, and ideas that I present here on the website. I am trying my best to repair whatever mistrust I have caused. I could easily have swept all that under the rug, but I felt like I should be honest with you.
Honestly, I thought about just giving away all the models for free just to rebuild that trust. But I have some financial difficulties that I need to resolve due to my personal problems, which is why I setup the membership program to completely share the models.
With that being said, I’d like to clarify a few things and tell you what’s going to happen with the Bull Markets website going forward.
Nothing that exists is going to change
The daily posts, studies, market outlooks, day trades etc will all remain as-is. I will continue to publish these daily.
The membership program is merely an addition to what’s already given away for free on the blog. There is no hurry to join right now – I understand that some people may be skeptical. Let the people who have already joined show you how useful it is.
Sorry if I don’t reply to everyone’s emails in a timely manner over the next few days.
It takes me approximately 4 hours each day to write the daily posts + think about the markets.
I’m working on setting up the membership program plugin (this site runs on WordPress).
I’m working on uploading the models and more importantly, writing the explanations. The models have a logic behind them that’s more important than the indicators/model itself.
I’m adding members manually and responding to emails. Probably spent 5 hours doing this yesterday.
In other words, working around the clock. So please be patient with me over the next few days 🙂
I’m adding another section to the blog as well. This isn’t really important if you’re just here for info on trading. I’m going to share some personal thoughts every now and then here that aren’t related to trading. What I went through was really tough, and putting it out there in writing does make me feel better.
I’m not looking to elicit pity. I just think that going forward, honesty is the best policy. Or as Darren Rowse from Problogger says, “be human”.
Some self reflection
I think my SO said it best. She said “what your mom did hurt you the way it did because she wasn’t always like that. She changed. What she did felt like betrayal” And that’s very true. Money changes some people I guess.
I’ve never been one to blindly trust people. But because she was my mom, I did.
As a kid, my mom sacrificed a lot for me and my brother. And that’s why I trusted her so much (I didn’t think twice when she told me certain things about life.) But as I grew up and our family became well off, money changed her. She constantly compared herself to a very close family friend of ours who’s a billionaire. My mom would always say “I’m just as smart as her, why don’t I have the kind of money she has”.
And it was that desire for money that made her lose her mind. She forgot that family was more important than money.
I guess I learned this the hard way: money isn’t everything, especially if your mind is a slave to it.
I’ve been thinking a lot about the last 10 years, and I think I know what it is I want in life: inner peace. It sounds silly, but I think that a person can only truly be happy if he/she lives a conscious-free, satisfied life.
I’ve always been raised with the idea that “money can’t buy happiness, but it will solve 95% of your problems”. That may be true, but blindly pursuing money destroys inner peace. I guess I learned that the hard way as well over the past few years.
Will I talk or trust my mom again? I don’t know. I want to, but it’s really hard. I think about it every so often. But it’s like when someone cheats on you – what’s to prevent them from doing it again? And what my mom did was worse. When someone cheats on you, it doesn’t usually damage you physically. What my mom did to me put me in a very dangerous situation that threatened me physically.
So I guess the lesson is that you should never trust someone blindly. But does this mean that you can’t trust someone wholeheartedly? I don’t think so. Trust other people who are very close to you wholeheartedly (e.g. family), but watch out for signs in case they change and become a different person.
This also means that as a person (you and I), we should always treat those we care about with kindness and respect. Family comes above everything. Right now I’m just focused on finding that inner peace and rebuilding my career.
I think a couple of the people that emailed/commented said it right: I can use this blog as resume some day. If I show the world how much I know and how much I’m learning through this blog, I don’t really need a university degree to rejoin the hedge fund world. In the meantime, I’m here in Sydney mostly because my SO is here. She has another year and a half of study here, after which we’re leaving. Who knows where life will take us. When you find someone who treats you that well, you can’t let her go 🙂
To end things on a happy note, this is one of my favorite country songs. I’m actually quite good at playing the guitar and singing, even though I’m not from the South. If all else fails, maybe I’ll become a musician haha. 🙂
I’ll post a guitar cover sometime.
Josh Turner is definitely my favorite singer. He’s a very classy guy.